The Chronicles of Killadev

As I sit here in my drunken stupor and attempt to get a handle on this vodka induced hang over, I grapple with a question that has plagued me for it seems as long as I have been a sentient, rational being and that is.......' what the eff ?'..... Now this question covers an extremely wide area and has led me to humbly attempt to reach some sort of conclusion, or just get a better understanding of it. However to efficiently do this, I am of the belief that different approaches and applications to the aforementioned question; of the different topics, are needed to adequately attempt the impossible. However, to attempt to do this in one crimson blase of glory I believe, would be too long, so having total creative control as I was assured by the chief bloggist himself, I will do this in a piecemeal fashion. Thus, creating within my series another series of topics to be discussed lol, so in a way a series within a series or if you will, a nested series. I think I'll go with nested series.

Anyway, to dispense with pleasantries and jump right into the proverbial ocean, the first of the nested series I think I should tackle is romantic relationships. This came to me in a flash of genius as I indulged in some home-made dances and was forced to observe some dudes semi-drunken attempts at what trinis call 'tracking' in this club I frequent. Hence I have decided that this would be a perfect time to asses and analyze irelationships using the above question as a guide.

Now, this is not to knock or disrespect anyone who believes and can say with the highest confidence they are in a real relationship and by real I mean; something that makes sense and involves two willing parties. I think it is a beautiful thing and when done correctly could see two people being made better by it. This is for everyone else......

So I again ask WTF is the point... these highly famed and semi-voluntary situations seem to be a seamless cycle of pointlessness. To illustrate my point lets take a glimpse into what I have been exposed to through personal experience, as well as what I would like to call observation and study. It seems that these monogamous situations are all a copy of each other. One bounces from empty relationship to empty relationship not really sure what their goal is, each leaving the person a little more jaded than the previous, until they are so emotionally scarred and warped that they settle for less than they would have about two or three relationships before. That is then passed by some, sadly the majority, as growth or maturity. Nothing is wrong with experiencing growth on any level but ensuring that this growth is sincerely growth and not just acceptance is sometimes very difficult. Now I am of the firm belief that; to enter into anything not knowing what you want as a result of your commitment, is not the most mature thing to do. So from the get go there is a contradiction to the very maturity that is somehow always invoked when dealing with these relationships.

So as this cycle continues one, be it boy or girl, hopes and begs that their relationship partner does something, or anything innocuously different form their other failed used-to-be suitors, to cause the brain to send electric charges to some gland that will in turn give off some chemical message that will result in that cliché feeling that is often referred to as love. Is this the point of relationships then, love? If that is the case then someone should only enter a relationship when they want to be in love or fall in love or whatever nice movie term you want to apply there? But in that lies a potential problem, in knowing this wouldn’t one sometimes force the situation which would end in one not truly attaining love but instead some weird aberration? Also, when one realises they are in a relationship where love could never develop should they do the responsible thing and end it or just enjoy it for everything it is and what it is not, and let it runs its natural course?

It seems somehow I have come up with even more questions and failed to answer the initial one. GO figure..... lol

P.S. VODKA is not to be drunk by humans; this disinfectant should only be used to clean tiles or something of the sort....

Killadev.....